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One of the most popular ways we view God is our Provider.
Provider of Grace for sins, joy in trials, and strength.
We view Him as Jehovah-Jireh, the provider of full closets and cupboards, more money and supernatural charisma. Or, maybe, a bit of both.
Then, when God doesn’t pull through like we want, we lose trust in Him.
But what if we could have such radical trust in what we can’t see, that we can view ourselves as provided for, no matter what?
My husband and I know first-hand that God’s provision doesn’t always look the way we think it should and what I’m sharing with you today is what I wish I would’ve been told during my hardest seasons.
We went through a couple of years where we were constantly struggling, especially financially. Our cupboards would have barely enough, we weren’t eating much fresh meat and produce and the little meat we did have would have to be totally stretched. A factory worker most of his life, work was completely spotty for my husband. I made a little bit from home, but caring for my sick pregnant body and soon after, a preemie, I couldn’t make the amount we needed to stay afloat.
After each struggle, I’d ask God, “WHY?! I know You’re up there! You say You want to provide for us, so why can’t I guarantee that my bills are going to be paid?!”
In that moment, I felt completely forgotten. Totally unprovided for. Like my life, the lives of my family just didn’t matter. I lost a lot of trust in God for the simple fact that He wasn’t coming through in the way that I thought He should.
But looking back today, friends..
I was provided for. I was beautifully protected and given the things that I needed the most at that time.
I was given an appreciation for the simple things. My husband and I were given a sense of teamwork. I was taught unselfishness through the birth of my preemie. I was gifted frugality skills that have not only helped me but have helped others too. I have a testimony and an unshakeable faith in the heart of God and I know without a doubt, that in the end, He is for us.
I didn’t need to have a huge grocery budget as much as I needed faith. I didn’t need security as much as I needed trust. I didn’t need consistency as much as I needed to know Jesus.
You guys, God’s heart for you is good. He knows what we need and His knowledge goes far beyond our physical desires.
I want to encourage you to look beyond what you can see and try to have faith in a bigger picture.
What do you think God is giving you in this season of life?